Lyrics

i was holding out for something, i just wasn’t quite sure what
used to start these days out running, now i’m hardly getting up
did i lose sight of what was coming- or was this all dumb luck?
i hate the thought of doing nothing, but it’s hard to give a fuck-

and i sift through all these reasons, but none of em’ seem fair
i’m coming up on thirteen seasons filled with thoughts i still won’t share
and digging for a meaning- maybe some kind of repair-
but it’s my own lack of belief in its existence anywhere

does it exist anywhere?
well i don’t know
and i just don’t know…
how i let this one go

i’m exhausted by the outcomes of almost everything i try
and the thoughts of being outdone by the same body and mind
that could easily just outrun all these finish lines-
chase away a setting sun and still make it home on time

i was always home on time-
but now i don’t know-
i just don’t know…
how i let this one go

so i conceal all my solutions in these small brown paper bags-
still waiting on the proof in any remedy i have
i won’t say they’re all useless, but it sure does make me sad
how there ain’t much you can do if you let it get this bad.

i let it get so bad-
and now i don’t know-
i just don’t know…
how i let this one go
how do i let this one go?